Ignore everything my last post said.
I don’t even know how but its all turned entirely in the last couple of days.
I’m doing everything right, I’m going to the gym every day, I’m eating right and I feel disgusting. I feel huge and I’ve gained weight.
I’m incredibly frustrated by my job right now having horrid migraines.
I feel repulsive.
I don’t feel good enough. For anything.
My entire existence feels fucking pointless.
It’s been a long time since I’ve been this happy with myself.
But 1 stone down and I can see my body changing.
I feel so much better in myself, happier, more confident, more energy.
Every time I step foot in that gym I am determined to smash an old record, and so far I’ve done that, every single time.
I’m no longer bloated, depressed and unmotivated.
Who knew that a bit of salad and a few gym sessions could feel so good.
I have a long way to go. But I’m confident in my ability to get there. And I certainly wouldn’t have gotten this far without my perfect, and incredibly supportive boyfriend.
shopping for clothes would be a lot more fun if i had a thinner body and a fatter wallet